My mom is such a superficial, judgmental, bitch. ):
And I know these are very harsh words to describe a parent, and most of you would NEVER say anything like this about your parents, but this is exactly what my mom is. She has her good moments sometimes.. but 80% of the time, it’s nothing but drama with her. She’s constantly telling me how I need to fix my hair, how fat I am (WHICH I KNOW IM NOT FAT.), how I need to get my nails done, blahblah. And honestly, I know there’s absolutely NOTHING wrong with my hair, considering I’ve been getting a lot more compliments on it lately, I’m obviously not fat, though I could shed a few extra pounds, and my nails are fine dammit. -_- She’s very superficial and I don’t know if she realizes it. I was so close to telling her how superficial and judgmental she can get, but if I did she would get really defensive and start yelling some more. ): I don’t want to feel insecure about these things, and I know she’s not the one making me feel that way, cause I control the way I feel. So far, I’ve been improving my self-esteem and.. I don’t know, her words are just so harsh and hurtful I can’t help but let it bother me. What she doesn’t realize is how often I sit in my room crying about how I hardly have any friends, how I feel like I don’t fit in at work, how I’m beginning to gain weight, and other various things going on in my life. NOW, I just come home from work crying because of my insecurities and how stressed out I am and blahh.. IDFK what to do anymore. She’s supposed to be there to bring me up, not tear me down. But she tears me down, hard. Recently, she’s been asking why I never ask HER for a ride to work, or a ride home from work, or wherever I wanna go. I always ask my grandma to take me cause, unfortunately, I’m so much happier with her and she treats me more like her kid than my parents EVER have. And I was sitting in my mom’s car today just thinking about all this bullshit she’s been putting me through, and I realize why I don’t ask her to take me anywhere and such. EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME I’m with her, she has SOMETHING to say. She always has something negative to say about my appearance. Then she blows things way out of proportion and I just want to fall in a hole and cry.